About a year ago, in an angry rant to my Congressman, I flipped about how the Democrats did not live up to any promises made to me and me friends and country about all the changes they were going to make when they got more power after the Congressionals. I flipped out because a woman asked why they have done nothing about Iraq, and he said the 08 elections were going to be a referendum on Iraq and show what the country really wants, and once the message is clear and they have more power after that, then the Dems can do something.....and that's when I stood up and went crazy...
Those were the exact words he used before the 06 elections to get me to vote, donate, write letters, protest, etc. And in my yelling, in my desperation, I screamed about how this was all a joke to them, that there are people dying by the thousands, and our children will be paying for this their entire lives, and in our land of laws, not men, many Dems openly say what's going on is illegal, but don't do anything about it.
And then I made my prediction. I asked, is this really how it's going to play out, this surge will give them the cover they need to pretend things are improving, all the while ignoring the fact that we know the military doesn't keep good stats, we know many of those numbers should drop anyway because a massive increase in force will do that, we know there has been irreparable damage, with much of the county destroyed and many of its citizens displaced...a nightmare, an imperialistic nightmare.
But as Bush's final days approach, the same bad journalists from the same biased papers will all get on message. They will take whatever the Pentagon throws them about how great things are getting. And while we have destroyed a nation and made ourselves less safe, the same PR mechanisms and people that got us into this mess will convince the idiots in this county and start adjusting the truth to make it seem as if Bush was right and the war is truly "won."
And here we are...what is the latest news... Things are "improving"...with no decent follow up by any news organizations who we have learned are putting the war on the backburner and pulling their people out.
Every talking head is unquestionably promoting the surge has worked idea.
Scumbag journalists and writers, who should have been fired when their credibility eroded years ago like David Brooks are writing pieces like todays joke of an article in the NY Times that made me sick to my stomach. His opinion is allowed to still be broadcast to the world, while people who were right over and over again like Juan Cole...write this fantastic summary about how things are really going...and it won't get anywhere near as much coverage.
I'm starting to realize that my ridiculous prediction n that angry rant is becoming true as I write this. I am watching history be adjusted and rewritten...and it's making me sick. And I write this here today because I keep thinking I've had enough and I'm going to stop working hard and reading this site and trying to stay up to date on things...and then I keep going. But I feel it coming. I feel the death of the idealist. I feel that I will have no choice to turn away from all of this, after seeing the last decade of my life spent trying to impact a political process and system that is so obviously corrupt and disgusting and illegal to anyone who takes 5 minutes out to think...and I don't want this to be my life.
If an opposition party in this country can face something like the Bush Administration...if they can have a party so clearly corrupt and so easily painted as the evil party, the party that does not care about americans....and if they can fail so miserably at taking these people to task, if they can let them all get away with this, then what the hell hope is there for any accountability in the future. Why in the world would I want to spend my next few decades not sleeping and wasting money on donations and wasting time on research and letters if the worst of the worst can't be held accountable in my country.
I feel it. The desire to stop, and to turn inward and just spend my life focusing on me me me like a good conservative. And it's getting to the point where I don't know if I have any other choice. If I keep going through this, I'll lose my mind or end up bitter and miserable feeling as though I've wasted my life.
And in the end, I blame the Dems for this. For pretending to be for us. For avoiding the truth and thinking over and over again that the best strategy is to try and play the disgusting game better than the Republicans. For asking for my help and then spitting on me after I give them what they want. Fuck them. Fuck them all and their fake empathy, their fake compassion, their false rhetoric and promises. And fuck them for making me turn away from a life I would have been proud of, and for making me become what I despise because I feel have no other choice if I want to get through this life sane. They have done nothing this last decade of worth, they will go down in history as the worst opposition party ever, and yet here they go again, taking more of my money for pork projects and the usual bs to get themselves elected by a fake democratic process that shuts out the overwhelming majority of us that weren't born into families with 8 figures in the bank. I will never, ever forgive any of them.